Flight of the Hummingbird - Day 79 - 6-24-2021 - Seeing the Possibilities

 

Nothing has come to fruition… yet. It’s not time. It is, however, starting to show up in my visions and potentials.

Staying here has been a blessing for me. Even after the last four days, nothing I have experienced in a while. I am really beginning to see the possibilities of these changes. I am connecting more and more with who I truly am, and I really love her.

I didn’t know how before. No one teaches us how we can love ourselves. We aren’t set up as a society to do that with our children, for the most part. Yes, there are people out there who do really understand that and know how. The majority is not set up for that.

We are now coming into a time and shift of many things, the least of which is healing our Mother and Father Wounds. Mostly it is with the Mother.

As I walk through this new experience, I am feeling that on all levels: as the child, as the mother, as the woman, as the one who has many generations and connections with women who have experienced pain, being demeaned, and never really knowing who we are.

The time has come for women to really heal. We are and have always been the givers of life, just like Mother Earth. When the giver of life dies – mentally, emotionally, spiritually and/or physically, we all do.

Even if it isn’t a physical death, it is a death of who we are. Until we recognize this and become brave enough to make the decision to change the patterns and heal, we will deal with dying to a life with the music still in us.

Men, same for you. You are here in this journey too because, well, you wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for your mother. And not in a sense that you owe her something, especially if she didn’t treat you well or she abandoned you. That is where the healing comes in.

No, this is a deeper level of understanding and healing. This is where you get to connect with that little boy (and women, that little girl) and learn to parent yourself until you can get to a point of healing yourself and integrating with your inner child.

This is the work. When you do that, you will experience things that you couldn’t ever imagine while being stuck in the Complex PTSD/PTSD flashbacks or whatever you are experiencing.

I have mentioned the small still voice before and I have mentioned the 2x4. Both happen. To everyone. Which one are you going to listen to?

It’s time to consider whether you are happy living in the lives you were told  live in toand you tell yourself. You are worth every bit of healing because at a soul level, you are love, you are truth, you are light.

It is there. I’m finding out what that is and it is beautiful.

How does it get any better than this?